i thought i got over it since it's been a few days .
it still crossed my mind occassionally but i would brush it off .
it's not as easy when i read about it .

i never cried like that before, except when it's about stuff between my bestfriend and i .
HURTS SO BAD .

or so i said, never get too serious or commited .
it wouldn't hurt so much if i cared lesser .

it's only monday, and i feel tortured .
got home from school, cried, slept, wokeup for dinner, cried, slept, wokeup to celebrate mummy's birthday, slept, wokeup, and here i am .

I'M TIRED TOO .
and nobody can understand it .
i went back to blog at my private blog again, after 2 whole months .
toldya, i'm the kinda person who just .. doesn't deserve to be happy .
when God makes me happy for 1day, he will take away another 5 from me .
that's the way it is .
my life is that insignificant .

anyway, happybirthday my darling mummy .
don't know why, but i feel like giving her a biggggg hug today .

my sucky thoughts aside .. .. ..
last night i watched KAT-TUN's Real Face con with puaysan on msn!
damn fun la the next con dvd that comes out i wanna do it again .
puaysan's so funny she kept making me laugh .
especially when she talks about being the chair in kame's 16seconds perf .

i'm falling more in love with KAT-TUN!
more in love with everyone in KAT-TUN .
especially tat-chan, he makes my heart go doki doki everytime he smiles .
eeeeeee so cute i cannot stand it .

proposal daisakusen's first ep must have finished airing in Japan alrdy .
which means, v soon it'll be up for downloads .
should i download the raw n wait for soft subs or should i wait for it to be hard subbed?
i only know i really wanna watch the drama .
AND i'm waiting for cartoon KAT-TUN 3rd ep because i'm addicted to KAT-TUN now .

and HELLO there're so many dramas i wanna watch now .
new ones, and old ones .
maybe tonight i'll go watch sapuri? or anego?
or MBMH?
must finish this 3, and HYD2 asap because they're dragging alrdy .

NEW CONCERT PLEASE ALSO RELEASE A DVD!

i'm broke after buying the new laptop case .
and all my school stuff .

i'll try to go sleep by 1 later .
gabriella kept asking me - clarice are you still gonna be an owl ?
because classes start at 8 almost everyday .
i don't know how to quit being an owl .

anyway, i'll be okay .
definitely will be .
tmrw there's jap class, i'm sure it'll make me feel at least a bit better .
(:

*HUGS SELF*
when life gives you lemons, make lemonade outta it .
:D :D

ganbarimasu .
10:16 PM
♥クラリス～☆˚