the one thing i love above everything else - home alone . fact is, nothing can be more healing than it .

anyway last night the kimsamsoon show got into me again and i think it got me to finally believe and admit that i still think of that abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz, fuck .

even if the signals were wrong, the words said everything . and i think single-handedly abcdef turned the whole thing into a big fucking lie . so why can't i just forget the whole damned thing? i think it's pretty clear to me that nothing like that's gonna ever happen again .

life is totally unbearable today because i don't feel empty, and nothing seems to be in control .
4:19 PM
♥クラリス～☆˚