secretly i sometimes wish that nothing ever happened . at least i would still be used to it and i wouldn't be waiting like a silly silly for something which isn't gonna happen . the higher something brings you, the harder you'll fall and crash . works like drugs; true huh .

i don't care if anyone else does it . but i care like hell for this . had such high hopes just last week but i think it was wishful thinking on my part again . maybe i'm just not constantly there .

still, my one and only, irreplacable, untouchable and ever so important .

okay bye i'm going to sleep . i wanna like, hibernate or something . just don't feel like getting up for school anymore . i need a damned break . holidays in a 3weeks' time, yay ! but before that, the finals in 2 . rahhh, i want a good long rest but the finals aren't giving it to me . after exams i think it'll be intensive pracs for family concert . music camp in october and that's really nothing but practice i think - someone kill me pleaseeeeee !

it's raining in the middle of the night . such a nice weather to sleep, hehe . goodnight, world .