first things first - people, go to
www.teachersday.sg/ - dedicate something to the great people who brought you through a certain period of your life . i posted nothing, too shy . =/
hao la, too emo .
anyway i really think that teachers are the greatest people on earth, second only to family & friends . not sure when i started thinking that teachers were so fab but i think it was during my primary3 days in err ... gosh, i can't even remember if it was in rivervalley or kranji primary .
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the kimsamsoon show makes me think alot about everything, i realised . it's not helping me at all . every day i'm getting increasingly confused about what i really want outta this couple of decades God gave me .
i'm losing control, breaking down . flashbacks, images, memories, screencaps, words, texts . fucking with every cell existing in my head . it's not my heart; it's my head .
follow your heart, people say . i can't; i just don't work that way . i think with my head more often than i do with my heart, and logical thinking isn't helping me this time because nothing here bears logic .
because what once felt so right turned into a complete living nightmare a year ago .
so what made me think that changing the anatomy of the person-in-question gurantees something true? it makes no silly sense .
this entry's totally jumbled . pretty much reflects on how jumbled-up the issues in my head are . swimming, jumping, twitching, running, strolling, crawling . eating into my consciousness, eradicating my sanity .
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anyway, teach me how to respect someone who expects a sleeping maid to wake up at this hour (0015) to keep away the leftover food when he is totally capable of doing it himself . he told me to wake the maid . i didn't . am not doing that bad for him . it's just plain selfish . mean and inconsiderate .
ohh and because of some influence i'm starting to develop some odd crush for hairdressing . just a phase la, i know . but hairdressing school sure sounds fun . (: the fees are really steep too, goshness .
11:59 PM
♥クラリス～☆˚
