wokeup with something extremely smile-jerking on e phone yesterday . yayyy, made my day! :DD someone just has this amazing ability to make me smile . (:

the piece taught during cello prac was so difficult la! practiced like crazy and it still sounds freaking awful - damn sad la . ): enjoyed the prac otherwise . bowing has to be improved - longggggg bows, remember ! heard yueying & rebecca play the virtuoso song . the cello part SOOO nice!

after prac bussed to the hospital again .

saw 奶奶 yawn so many times today . made me smile; at least i see her doing something which she hasn't done since she got hospitalised . and that, to me, is an improvement alrdy . (: but hell la, on the way back home mummy said something about her looking brain-damaged when she yawned . like, QUIET la, stop reminding me of that!

i seem to be the only one living in this disillusioned world, bearing hope that 奶奶 will recover completely . i mean, i know it'd be a miracle if that happens . but stop slapping the reality in my face la, i'm living in denial, kaeeeee? ):

daddy said something about him rather 奶奶 to not be completely conscious and aware of the surroundings, because judging her character, she'd feel SO terrible to be bedridden, unable to do even the simplest things like moving her hand . which is so true kae . 奶奶's always been independent, always strong . i don't want her to know what'd happened to her either . but i ... SIGH, i don't know la .

it's been a month . one whole month .

ayeee anyway i just wasted 3hours looking for a new blogskin just now but found nothing i liked, hmrph . feeling SO unaccomplished la . homework all undone . ipc's SO tough . i don't understand e acids & bases chpt and i've read thru it so many times alrdy . ):

and yah, all thanks to the teaparty, we can't catch a movie during monday's longgg noon break as decided . ): why wasn't the teaparty last monday instead?

alright, sleep time! sleep and let the scenes of practical tests haunt me, hahaha! (x
i hope my bestfriend wakes up feeling better later .
(:
3:19 AM
♥クラリス～☆˚