am bringing my laptop to ngeeann in awhile . shall blog since i have some extra minutes . (:

i still am doing the same thing night after night after night . and i still get the same response night after night after night . and that response, is silence . i don't get a thing from her . it's over, evident . i know it's all over . nothing i do is ever gonna bring us back to how we were back then . it's no longer possible . i miss how close we used to be . i marvel at how i can spend a whole day at her house, just me and her alone; no awkwardness at all . i gasp in awe when i think back on how she could casually mention that she'll be dropping by my house when she's free . was that all a dream ? did all that actually happen ? looking at the situation between us now makes me so blue . i don't know about her, but i sure have not given up on the whole thing . the day i stop doing what i do night after night shall be the day i let go of her . completely . i don't know when that's gonna be, but it wouldn't be anytime too soon . i've single-handedly wrecked us apart previously . and now, i will not be the one snipping the last dangling bits of bond tying us together . i don't sense her around anymore .
9:47 AM
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