i just got home from outside-studying .
and guess how much studying i got done out there?
very little .
but well, if i were to be half-glass full,
at least i studied more than i would have if i were to stay at home .
because there's a monster distractor in my room, lurking on my study table .
and that is, with no questions asked, the thing my fingers are moving on now .
my laptop .
i'm giving myself half an hour to blog before i get on studying again .
exams are SO garlic .
i hate garlics .
and the same goes to exams .
biology is giving me mixed feelings .
remember i ever mentioned (just a few posts ago) that i love it ?
yeah, i love reading and understanding the things in there .
but i hate biology exams because memorising is essential .
and after attending the Spelling Bee thing @ Singapore Polytechnic a few days back,
it suddenly came to me that the facts i've hardly managed to squeeze into my memory are like fundamentals to the students in the better institutions .
they know things which were NOT even mentioned in the textbooks .
things which misspang herself have forgotten .
this proves something to me .
that we, the students from huayi, are like plankons in the vast ocean .
whereas those from the top institutions are like the big blue whales .
i don't know what sets the planktons and the whales apart .
maybe it's the environment and the kind of atmosphere we're put in .
it's not that students from neighbourhood school don't study or anything .
but ..
well, maybe as mrschong had mentioned ..
these bright students had been preparing for their Olevels since they were in secondary 1 .
and by now they ought to have read through the textbooks at least 30 times .
and have commited 70% of the text into their memory .
and all that they need to worry about now is that other 30% which they only have a brief idea of, and the things which are not in the textbook .
if only i studied when i was in primary 6 .
maybe i could have gotten a better PSLE aggregate and get into those prestigious instituitions .
maybe under that kinda positive influence, i won't have to be in the state i am in currently .
a state of helplessness ,
just gasping in awe at what others know and i don't .
and i think through this i found the inspiration motivation that i've been desperately looking for for the past few days .
i shall work hard and get into either a prestigious junior college or a polytechnic .
and when i'm there i shall be a good student and start preparing for my A levels or the final exams which poly students take from year 1 .
then i shall get my good results and move on to university .
i'm having big dreams which may never be part of reality .
but ..
hey, people can dream right ?
but SIGH .
looking at my results currently, i think i may not even be able to get into Singapore Polytechnic's good courses .
*grumbles*
my big dream is SO far from reality to the extent that the motivation i'd just derived has died off .
this is BAD .
i don't know, but i'm just SO damned afraid .
*sighs a big sigh*
i think i shall just talk about something less academics to de-stress myself .
hahaas .
have i ever mentioned that i hate to bring my dog downstairs for walks ?
if i haven't then let me say it now .
i really hate it .
you see, my dog isn't a chihuahua or any other smaller-breed dog which people will go "awwwww so cute!" at when they see her .
she's a Border Collie and if you don't know, it's rather big in size .
and because of her size, people get paranoid when they see her .
they go like ..
"eeeee .."
and "wahlauu~"
and "ohh my goodness that's horrible!" .
and you know, that pisses me off like anything .
i know it's not wrong of them to be afraid or anything .
but please be more polite, can't they .
they don't have to express their fear, or worse, disgust, so loudly to the extent when their irritating comments are completely audible by the dogs' owner, right?
to people who are offended by what i just wrote in the previous paragraph, i'm sorry but i can't help it .
a dog may be just an animal to you .
but do you actually understand what a dog means to the owners ?
the bond dogs and their owners share is special and unique .
one which is difficult to express in words .
a dog is more than just an animal in the eyes of their owners .
to owners, their dogs are their best friends, their confidante, their companion, their child, their life .
like how a loyal dog will do anything to protect its owner,
a dog owner will do anything to protect his or her dog .
this is something which only dog owners will understand .
let me give an analogy ..
if you were taking a walk downstairs with your son or daughter,
and someone were to talk bad about him or her when he or she did NOTHING wrong at all ,
how would you feel ?
don't tell me nothing .
i buy no bullshit like that .
of course you'll feel angry, you'll be pissed, and at that point of time there's nothing more you wanna do except to give that person who insulted your child ONE TIGHT SLAP on his or her face .
exactly the same way i feel when i hear people making comments about my dog .
they don't even KNOW her .
yes, she may be big in size, and this may be intimidating .
but i see no need for the rudeness .
to end off,
i love my dog . (:
hehees .
and in case you were wondering why i stopped so hastily ..
it's because i've exceeded the half an hour i've set aside for blogging already .
wish me luck for tomorrow's papers .
and yay!
there's school tomorrow .
:DDD
7:40 PM
♥クラリス～☆˚
