serious monday blues .
aftereffect of my beautiful weekend .
awesome, isn't it ?
don't ask me why i'm not talking if i don't .
because the only reason for it is that i'm too tired, and i have no wish to talk .
especially when there's nothing to talk about .
enough said .
i've made my point, i suppose ?
i laughing at every single contradiction i make in my blog .
smirking at the irony of it all .
what is this ?
indulgence of self-pity ?
bullshit .
i think, yes, i think alot .
and i get the consequences .
so damn the consequences .
and to the hell with the consequences .
there's nothing i can do about them .
ice walls around me getting real thick .
everytime they crumble, i'll build them right back .
stronger and colder than ever .
circumstances forced it .
not me .
only within these walls will i live .
and only out of these walls will i be slashed and sliced and burnt and tormented .
i'll just stay in there, quietly .
and no one elses' business has got anything to do with me .
i don't give a hell damn .
i don't have the time .
neither do i have the energy to do anything, for anyone, anymore .
everytime the walls crumble, the one who stopped crying within the new walls will never be the same as before .
NEVER .
lessons learnt; knowledge applied .
trust broken ; trust vanishes .
just like a relationship or what not .
once gone, it's a goodbye straight .
no matter how hard one tries to salvage the situation, the bond had and will always remain disappeared .
insercurites kill yours truly .
kills totally .
i won't let dear world comprehend me .
i cannot explain .
dear world will never understand .
and neither will i try to make dear world understand .
is this just what we call, Destiny ?
6:23 PM
♥クラリス～☆˚
