mom woke cclarice up @ 6.30am tis morning ..
told her to do so last nyte ..
din wanna crawl outta bed so set my hp alarm clock @ 7 ..
-brrrringgg!-
7.00am ..
*snooze*
-brrrringg!-
7.05am ..
*snooze*
-brrrringg!-
7.10am ..
*snooze*
-brrrringg!-
7.15am ..
okaes okaes i wake up!!
hahaas ..
bathed n went off meet lina @ lakeside ..
went iris' hse do s.studies proj on japan ..
*yawns*
boring ..
copied n pasted everything practically ..
we din even do a single animation fer e ppt ..
blahs!
iris lina n cclarice dont care! xp

***

you r feeling down once more ..
you r not as strong as you phrase yourself to be ..
jianqiang - wad rubbish ..
a strong front with hurtful words don make you strong inside ..
yes, you claim you like to b left alone, selectively ..
you claim you don nid anyone in your life ..
you claim you can live very well on your own, alone ..
you claim dat superficiality fills your life n you r happy ..
you claim you want no heart-felt relationship with anyone ..
you claim you dislike commitments ..
you claim you hate others being too nice to you ..
you claim you enjoy e peace when alone ..
all these statements, you claim dat they r true ..
budd there r tyms when you really feel alone ..
n dat's when you wonder y you wanna put up such a strong front ..
everythings' hurting you, bud you juz chose to keep quiet n run away ..
you never let yourself face reality ..
your heart aches fer someone hu truly will b there ..
you desire fer a destiny fulfiled ..
you wan more den juz to acheive your materialistic dreams ..
you never told anyone wad you wanted, wad you needed ..
cuz you fail to trust anymore ..
yes, you r heartless ..
you mean you pretend to be ..
e failure to trust shatters your life into millions of pieces ..
no matter how beautiful n perfect things seem to b ard you,
e wounds in your heart can never b healed again ..
your world inside is juz a world of chaos ..
dark, cold, silent n of course ..
lonely .
bud you juz hide it, hide it frm e world ..
n hide it even frm yourself ..
tell urself dat you r happy ..
dat you r contented ..
dat your life is perfect n complete ..
bud when you're left all alone to think abt e things occuring ..
e pain in your heart is beyond words' description ..
thrown at a corner, left to fend fer yourself,
the strong front you put on has dissolved into you ..
you indulge in e thoughts dat you r really r wad you pretend to be ..
bud dat strong front is not you ..
if you were to pull dat strong front off yourself ..
u clearly noe wad u would b left ..
a battered soul, an aching heart ..
you lie at a corner, bleeding frm e wounds ppl ard you inflict on you,
knowingly or unknowingly ..
you just let it all bleed ..
you scream in pain ..
you yell in sorrows ..
you weep, you sob ..
bud no one hears you ..
no one's ard ..
you r in ur own world ..
where no one can enter, even your closest frens ..
nor your family ..
you noe your words may hurt others ..
you noe dat juz e statement [commitment=burden] has hurt many ppl ..
bud you did it all e same ..
"to protect yourself, you haf to b heartless .."
dat's wad you alwaes told yourself ..
bud look where it got you landed in ..
a pool of your own blood .. .. .. ..
you are but a living-dead object ..
you feel nothing, anymore ..

you are cclarice ..
cclarice is you .. =)

you hear daddy coughing ..
your heart aches ..
you see mummy slogging wif housework ..
your heart shatters ..
you see ur brother cry ..
your heart breaks ..
you see ur bestfren sad ..
your heart cries ..
why not juz show em dat u love em ..
y put up such a strong front?!

i hate you ..
i really do, sometimes ..

dear you,
remember to smile .. =)

ps. pls note dat e you in tis entry is not e special *you i alwaes refer to ..
8:07 PM
♥クラリス～☆˚